What You Seek Is Seeking You

Last Updated 2/10/19

“The charm of knowledge would be small, were it not so much shame has to be overcome on the way to it.” -Friedrich Nietzsche


Growing up I was raised as a Christian. I went to both Catholic and Christian schools as a young boy, but my parents never ingrained me with strict religious character. My father told my sister and I to never attend church service-to not believe the doctrines bestowed on the masses but rather to ask the right questions and seek our own truth. We did not celebrate Christmas or Easter. We were also raised to believe they, among others, were Pagan holiday’s and had nothing to do with Jesus Christ.

My Grandfather had left a bad religious taste in my fathers mouth. As a boy, his parents had joined a Christian cult known as “Grace Communion International”. There was an annual meeting in the rocky mountains where the leader of the group would fly in via Jet. My dad would explain in detail the loud boom it would make breaking through the mountain pass. The same man, Herbert Armstrong, would be escorted via Cadillac from airport to his church service.

Before my parents separation, my father saw to it that I was given all of his theosophical pamphlets from the Academy of Scriptural Knowledge (ASK). Most of the pamphlets were written by Dr. Ernest L. Martin. Some of his works included The Divine Mandate for Human Government, The Use and Abuse of the Holy Scriptures, The Tithing Dilemma, and The Hoax of Modern Christian Commissions. I enjoyed these pamphlets because they questioned common convention with rational evidence that could be supported and further corroborated. From here on I observed religious factions as merely institutions incapable of change, held to their own doctrine and unwilling to question or look beyond what they were given.

Eventually I would go on to pursue a degree in English. That path lead me through important eras of thinking, like the Romantic and Victorian ages of writing, all of which contained religious and mystical elements that struck me as fascinating simply because of the mystery and imagination—the idea of a more.

Although my final discipline of study was international business, the humanities courses I had taken fed my interests into the theosophical and philosophical. Leading me further into the study of religion was Dr. George Leonard of SFSU who opened up the ‘idea’ of God and how we perceive the most high. Having open discussions on Jesus, what he actually did and did not say, and Eastern philosophy including ‘The Way and It’s Power’ (Tao Te Chin). The Philosophy of Science with works including Emanuel Kant also riddled my mind with further questions of this reality and the nature of God, the source.

“Behold, I send you forth as sheep in the midst of wolves; be ye therefore wise as serpents, and harmless as doves.” (Mathew 10:16)

Since then, I’ve been endlessly searching for truth. I knew that the entirety of all that I sought would be self discovery, for there was no one I knew that possessed such knowledge. And so, this is my research on the origins of Christianity, the words of Christ, theosophical truths, and the creation of Humanity. From studying other religions, critically analyzing contextual translations, observing the courses of both man and history, we can truly understand what this existence is. Although we remain mindless now, rise we shall as Sons of the Morning.

Christianity: Origins and Rome

During the life span of Jesus, Romes republic was just beginning to enter its decline and exit the world stage. In the years before his birth, the classical world, including but not limited to Africa, the Middle East, Asia, Europe (including British Isles), was aggregated by the Roman Empire under Julius Cesar. The Western Roman conquerors decided to Annex the province of Judea, which also included Samaria, Idumea, Galilee, and Phoenicia. It was then declared a client kingdom of Rome. Client kingdoms were set in place so that they would pay taxes, supply food for Romes population, create military alliances, and if they couldn’t—Vae Victus. Romans often sacked cities and took slaves if bounties could not be paid.

Prior to Caesars rule, Rome was a tiny city state along the Italian peninsula. From the 8th century B.C. to its rise, Rome has always been a nation of war. Wars with the Sabines, the first Latins wars, and wars with the Samnites and Celts were minor. Then came the first Punic wars. Much like the United States before to WWI and WWII, Rome had much to gain from a word on fire, especially if they were setting the flame.
After the conclusion of the Punic and Macedonian wars, the Romans had an influx of land, resources, loot, and most importantly—slaves. A mixture of all types of foreign people entering the Roman regions. The magnitude of slaves coming in created cheap labor, thus making the rich elite even more wealthier as they now had slaves to do most of their farming and labor. Politicians such as the Gracchus brothers (2nd Century B.C.) foresaw the instability; witnessing foreign slaves working in place of free Italian citizens. They championed the cause of the public by demanding reforms on land directly to the Senate, and were both consequently killed in cold blood.

Gaius’ head was removed, its weight paid in gold, his body and his 3 thousand supporters were thrown into the Tiber river, their homes were looted and their property confiscated.

The following decades of Romes continued rise to power saw a civil war, more political killings, a dictatorship, and conversely showed the rising generation of Romans how power and wealth can be attained.

Then we have Caesar, an overtly ambitious outlier in the whole Roman system. He was a ruffian, cultured, charming, a genius, and was looked down upon by his elders for being so different. “Beware of that boy with the loose clothes,” the prior Dictator Sulla said, “in him goes a thousand Marius.” Having almost been executed by the previous civil wars political killings, he climbed the political ranks into the Senate, then eventually created the First Triumvirate, an informal secret alliance between Crassus, the wealthiest man in Rome, and Pompey the Great, one of the most successful military commanders at that time. Crassus and Pompey were both vying for the top job in Rome, the consulship, which awarded the honor of marching off to war (and gaining access to all the glory, wealth, and power that follows). They were sworn political enemies until the very clever Caesar arranged an agreement between the three of them.

However when the Triumvirate began to fall apart, there came Romes 2nd civil war between the two parties of Pompey and Caesar. After Julius’ decisive victories against his political enemies, he declared himself dictator, and controlled much of the known world. After the assassination of Caesar, came his heir Augustus, the first Emperor of Rome. He, along with Mark Antony, and other conspirators, waged a series of civil wars against the assassins of Caesar, who were also politicians and powerful elites of Rome. These events marked the end of the Republic.

Judaism was recognized as a legal religion under Julius Caesar somewhere between 45-40 B.C. King Herod I was recognized by the Roman Senate as the King of the Jews (Judea). According to Jack Miles, author of Christ: A Crisis in the Life of God (2001), he and his temple are the “work of a Roman puppet, an Idumaean married into a collaborationist Jewish clan.” (p. 19)

Pilate, finding no fault in Jesus, washed his hands with water before the crowd and said “I am innocent of this man’s blood; see you to it.”

The Jews were “an oppressed people living in an occupied land.” (p. 20) Miles goes on to say. During John’s Baptisms, there also came Roman officers and Tax collectors to seek atonement. “There were tax collectors too, who came for baptism, and they said to him, “Teacher (Rabbi), what must we do?” He said to them, “Exact no more than the appointed rate.” Some soldiers questioned him as well: “What about us? What should we do?” He told them, “No intimidation! No extortion! Be satisfied with your pay.” [Luke 3:12-14]

Christ was officially put to death by the Roman Empire via crucifixion. It is the account of Tacitus, from Rome, who details the first hand accounting of Pontius Pilate in Jerusalem, where we get the earliest non-Biblical reference of Christ Jesus, confirming that Jesus in fact existed. After his passing, his brother James ‘the Just’ was bestowed Jesus’ ecclesia. Followers of Christ were niche and few, often consisting of a mixture of humbled poorer Jews and Greeks. They were persecuted and hated for believing and following in what the Jews took to be a false messiah. A protomartyr of Christ was Stephanos (Greek for ‘Crown/Wreath’ and and extensively ‘Reward/Honor’) who upheld that Christ was upholding the Law of Moses, words of blasphemy to the Sanhedrin. During his speech, the crowd was unable to contain their anger much longer and drug Stephanos to the streets where he was stoned to death. One of the witnesses of the event held some jackets and garments of the wealthy citizens who were throwing stones—his name was Paul.

“Was there ever a prophet your ancestors did not persecute? They even killed those who predicted the coming of the Righteous One. And now you have betrayed and murdered him.” Protomartyr Stephanos [Acts 7:51-53] Paul the Apostle holding the jackets of the murderers.
The followers of Christ at this time are not what you would imagine a modern Christian to be. They were Pagan, Hellenistic (culturally Greek), and of course Jewish—but above all they were Gnostics, as was Christ himself. They recognized the Law of Nature, sacred geometry, placed emphasis on the stars and planets, and moons above, they had a pantheon of deities that made up physical creation along with realms beyond, and at the head of all creation, The Most High—a unified House consisting of a Father, Mother, and a Son, which made the whole of the single source of all there is, the Godhead.

During Nero’s reign, he initially tolerated the Christians, only to aimlessly persecute them when the great fire burned most of Rome. Nero had many Christians, and/or Pagans, rounded up, tortured, and killed because the blame of the fire befell the followers of Christ.

From Tacitus’ Annals (15.44): The passage describes the great fire that burned Rome for 6 days under the reign of Nero in July of 64 A.D.

’Consequently, to get rid of the report, Nero fastened the guilt and inflicted the most exquisite tortures on a class hated for their abominations, called Christians by the populace. Christus, from whom the name had its origin, suffered the extreme penalty during the reign of Tiberius at the hands of one of our procurators, Pontius Pilatus, and a most mischievous superstition, thus checked for the moment, again broke out not only in Judæa, the first source of the evil, but even in Rome, where all things hideous and shameful from every part of the world find their centre and become popular. Accordingly, an arrest was first made of all who pleaded guilty; then, upon their information, an immense multitude was convicted, not so much of the crime of firing the city, as of hatred against mankind. Mockery of every sort was added to their deaths. Covered with the skins of beasts, they were torn by dogs and perished, or were nailed to crosses, or were doomed to the flames and burnt, to serve as a nightly illumination, when daylight had expired. Nero offered his gardens for the spectacle, and was exhibiting a show in the circus, while he mingled with the people in the dress of a charioteer or stood aloft on a car. Hence, even for criminals who deserved extreme and exemplary punishment, there arose a feeling of compassion; for it was not, as it seemed, for the public good, but to glut one man’s cruelty, that they were being destroyed.’

The Romans at this time viewed Christianity as a grotesque religion, as rumors spread of the consumption of the blood and body of their God (The Lords Supper).

After the death of Christ, Jesus himself became manifest to one of those aimlessly persecuting Christians. Paul the Apostle, or Sauul the Jewish/Greek Roman citizen, was not considered of the first 12 apostles and yet has been well renowned for spreading the word of Christ to gentiles (non Jews/Romans) and Jews alike. He was successful in spreading a religion of forgiveness and atonement through the death of one man, the son of God, so that our sins may be wiped clean, and our souls be forever atoned—the sins of soldiers, a nation of war and corruption, occupying foreign soils, enslaving and taxing the conquered.

“Although I am free in regard to all, I have made myself a slave to all so as to win over as many as possible. To the Jews I became a Jew to win over Jews; to those under the law I became like one under the law – though I myself am not under the law – to win over those under the law. To those outside the law I became like one outside the law. To the weak I became weak to win over the weak. I have become all things to all, to save at least some. All this I do for the sake of the gospel, so that I too may have a share in it.” (1 Cor 9:19-23; see also 1 Cor 10:33, Rom 15:1).

Of course when Sauul speaks of the law he is mentioning how he operated within the parameters of the Roman legal system. Did Paul spread the word because of his faith, or to gain a place in history?

Much later after Christ, Constantine waged a civil war against a political adversary. He adopted the letters Chi Roh on the shields of his soldiers, and defeated his opponent.

The Nag Hammadi Scriptures

The Nag Hammadi Scriptures are a collection of papyrus bound books, buried near the city of Nag Hammadi in upper Egypt, likely in the 2nd half of the 1300’s CE Within these codices are 41 undiscovered writings on early Christian, Neoplatonic, Hermetic, Sethian, and Valentinian thought. Most of the texts date back to the 2nd or 3rd centuries C.E. (101—299 years after Christ). The people who had buried the books are unknown, but there are indications that they derive from the 260-350 CE coinciding with an edict from the Pachomian monastic order (an Egyptian Coptic Roman/Christian sect) in 367 to eliminate all apocryphal writings from the libraries. These philosophical religious teachings were gathered by a community of Gnostic’s who sought to preserve this knowledge that was deemed to be excluded from Christian teachings.

The Christian community was transformed with the discovery of these new gospels previously unknown. Irenaeus of Lyon, writing from 160 C.E. denounced passages from the Secret Book of John and specifically mentions the Gospel of Judas. Another early Christian writer from Rome, Hippolytus, quotes opening lines from the Gospel of Thomas. Other mentions include the Gospel of Truth. These alternative Gospels were looked at illegitimate by the Bishop, Irenaeus who said “the heretics say they have more gospels than there really are; but really, they really have no gospel which is not full of blasphemy.” (Against Heresies 3.11.9.) Because of his writings denouncing these other Christian sects, we can affirm that there were many Gospels in circulation in the Ancient world, one such mention from the Bishop included a group of rural Gallic Christian’s (undoubtedly Pagan) also practicing these alternative Gospels. Irenaeus went on to insist that there could only be Four Gospels because there are four corners of the universe, four principal winds, “there cannot be more than four gospels, nor fewer.” (Against Heresies). He further went on to ascribe Gnostic’s with dualists that believed the physical universe was created by an evil power, which in turn gave them a negative view of the world and the ruler of the material. Playing them out to be sort of nihilists.

It is suspected that these texts were translated from Greek to Coptic by early Christian monks in Egypt who treasured them as holy. Acting against the Archbishop of Alexandria, Athanasius, they collected, translated, and hid the books to protect themselves against “heresy” and preserve the ancient knowledge of which is undoubtedly a combination of Pre-Dynastic Egyptian (Hermetic), Ancient Greek (Neoplatonic), and of the earliest known Christian (Gnostic) teachings.

“All the present time is a point in eternity.”-Marcus Aurelius

Historical Jesus Vs. Factual Yeshua

Interestingly enough, one of the most renowned names across our Earth—Jesus, is in fact not his true name. “Jesus bore, ironically, the name of the greatest warrior of his people. That we call him Jesus is an accident of Latin translation. Iesous in the original Greek of the Gospels translates Hebrew yehoshua’ or yeshua’, alternate forms of the name Joshua, a name compounded of Hebrew words meaning ‘The Lord is salvation.” (Miles, p. 11)

With the discovery of these long lost scriptures, we can paint an even broader picture of the Christ figure—specifically, the Gospel of John.

Of those 4 Gospels found in the New Testament, they detail the life, death, and resurrection of Christ. However, we are discovering redundancies in the life of Christ. In 1993, a team of theologians— revered, respectable, international academia’s, banded together and meticulously conceived what Jesus really had said, and what was added for effect, or further after the fact. “The Five Gospels has many authors. They have been trained in the best universities in North America and Europe. Together and singly, they first of all inventoried all the surviving ancient texts for words attributed to Jesus. They then examined those words in the several ancient languages in which they have been preserved. They produced a translation of all the gospels, known as the Scholars Version.”-Preface to The Five Gospels. Let us suppose they know what they’re talking about. Keeping in mind the Documentary Hypothesis theory, it has already been formulated there are many authors of the Bible, some having the same source, such as “Q”, others borrowing and building off others. The OT, being the oldest is of supposed oral tradition, having some origins from Egypt—more on that later.

Here’s what the Jesus Seminar concluded: They found that 82% of the words attributed to Jesus’ were not actual words spoken by him. Not only that, but they detail that the relatively newly discovered Gospel of Mathew reproduces about 90% of the Gospel of Mark, and Luke about 50% of Mark. The Apostle Paul also created the heavenly figure of Jesus by “smothering Jesus” and “Superimposing this heavenly figure on him.” [Five Gospels]

In a sense, there are less than four gospels, according to what documents have been provided to us by the institution that is the “Church”. Let us remember that the word Church itself derives from Ecclesia, it’s original meaning was a ‘community’ as in the earliest “Christian’s” thought and made decisions as a collective. Presently we are herded like sheep.

“Truly, any man be a fool who is surprised at anything in life.”-Marcus Aurelius

Gnosticism: The First Christians

This symbol, called the ‘Chi’Rho‘  was the earliest identifier associated with the followers of Joshua, before the Church made it a dying man on a cross.

The Chi’Roh
  • The “Chi” band is the X which represents the solar ecliptic path & the celestial equator. These two bands form the World Soul or Spiritus Mundi (the world collective conscious). Chi in astronomy is also the 22nd star in the “Chi Opiuchi”. Qi, also known as Chi or Ki, is the circulating life force found in Chinese philosophy and medicine, the word means air, and to breath. The Greek P in the symbol is there to represent ΧΡΙΣΤΟΣ translated Kristos, meaning anointed or blessed.
  • More importantly, how did such primitive Greek/Eastern ancestors of ours represent hidden meanings within a symbol.

Okay, so from that let’s take away the important facts: The hint of Astrology and Astronomy, the mentioning of a collective world thought, and the similar connections to other Ancient philosophies separated by time, boarders, and cultures. Esoteric, mystical, hermetical, whatever logos you may place on it-of the same source.

“Therefore, we may consequently state that: this world is indeed a living being endowed with a soul and intelligence…a single visible living entity containing all other living entities, which by their nature are all related.”-Plato

Many, many, manyyyyyy, many, many……many renowned thinkers throughout time have mentioned a Spiritus Mundi(World Spirit), or Anima Mundi (World Soul). To name a few, Plato, Yeats, Tesla, Blake, Stoics, Hermetical teachings including the multiple Kabbalah’s, the Maya, Valentinian’s, Jewish Merkavah, the Knights Templar, the Kingdom of the Wise, the Moors of the East, pre-dynastic Egyptians, the Ancient Hindi, all Neoplatonic thought, you get it. So what is it? A bunch of Ghosts and Apparitions floating around the atmosphere pointing and laughing at us, watching you mindlessly lust after women and chase material possessions? Are they angels and demons sent to protect or torture?

A mother figure, named Sophia, with child. Inscribed underneath in Latin “Divine Instrument, let nature be.”
  • The consensus regarding the Collective Conscious states that it is the Natural connection between all living things that were, and are to become, just as our soul is connected to this human prison body. In Hindi, the Atman is the Self and in Buddhism it is the Essential Self (Cosmic Self).
  • earth_grid1Modern science is now coming to understanding the invisible electromagnetic grid around the Earth’s atmosphere. Each magnetic center point has a correlation with an ancient structure. Each point has a sacred geometrical relevance to the next.
  • Using the Scientific Philosophical explanation of the much venerated Immanuel Kant, who states that Phenomena are ways our human minds react to the unusual or unfathomable. The human mind is limited in perception to the logical/physical world and only reacts to such. Dharma in Buddhism is conversely the term to explain this Cosmic Law and Order.
  • If you are a scientist, think of it as a neural network that we cannot trace with modern technology. Perhaps it is traceable, but our limited perception and understanding cannot register what it actually is. Perhaps the Zero point?

Here is an example of the sciences comprehending that which is beyond our limited understanding:

This collective world soul is ineffable, it cannot be fathomed or understood with our limited perception. But if we can break down the fabric of realities that we overlook, mental rebirth awaits. All mystical knowledge comes from the without; thoughts and ideals particularly assigned to you, yet foreign and oddly timed. A woman dreams of a long corridor with innumerable doors. Frantically she begins opening each door, attempting to hastily find what it is she seeks. Upon waking, the dream is forgotten and the dreamer does not comprehend that in reality they aimlessly search for something they do not know.

Fact: DMT is released in your sleep. According to Stanford educated Doctor Rick Strassman (author of DMT: The Spirit Molecule), patients have reported seeing the same entities during induced DMT trips that include reptilian beings, bug like creatures (bee’s), and mechanical dwarfs. DMT, as well as other psychedelics, are used to treat substance abuse, addiction, and depression. Clinically depressed patients who consume this substance will have a spiritual journey, travel to strange places, and meet/speak telepathically with beings. Often times these ‘guides’ show exactly the source of what troubles the subject, returning them to a state of well-being and comprehension. 

More on Astral Projection and DMT.

WiKi on Astral Projection.

The Baphomet: usually tied to Satanic ideology and Paganism, is a very common image of antiquity. Usually an Androgynous being shown with Serpents, the Sun, and the Moon. The Templar were eliminated by the Church (because the King didn’t want to pay them) for bringing back this Heretical trash from the Holy Wars in the East.

Sometimes, things arrive in our minds without explanation. Maybe you and your sibling thought of the same thing at the same exact time. Or the bird you had imagined in your dream, arrives at your window sill. One may say “coincidence”, or it is but an accident; however, that is your own refusal to believe in anything beyond  yourself. Space and time bend and shift around our every motion, yet you wonder when Keith Urban will be back in town and whether that guy from Tinder is still using the app. You finite fickle fuck, only concerned with finances, material possessions, overindulging in sensations,  fretting over how other people perceive you. When we actualize our thoughts, We, the Unshakable Generation and our Gnosis will inhale you whole, and breathe you out. 🙂

Sorry, blacked out there for a minute. Anyways, that cosmic mystical stuff doesn’t really sound like Christianity to me. Let’s get some things straight: Many portions of the Holy Bible contain redundancies, different authors/redactors, that hark on human fears. Originally a Jewish faith, Christianity came to be when Paul (alias for Saul) preached the ‘Good Word'(Gospel) to the gentiles. How convenient, a religion of forgiveness and atonement through the death of one man, so that our sins may be wiped clean. The sins of soldiers, of a nation of war, occupying a foreign soil.

“Although I am free in regard to all, I have made myself a slave to all so as to win over as many as possible. To the Jews I became a Jew to win over Jews; to those under the law I became like one under the law – though I myself am not under the law – to win over those under the law. To those outside the law I became like one outside the law. To the weak I became weak to win over the weak. I have become all things to all, to save at least some. All this I do for the sake of the gospel, so that I too may have a share in it.” (1 Cor 9:19-23; see also 1 Cor 10:33, Rom 15:1). You could imagine why a religion that preaches of salvation through forgiveness would wipe their own hands free of guilt as to attract more followers. And to be real, in those days if you were a soldier, of ANY army, you did some pretty fucked up shit just to get the promise of a plot of land, like I don’t know….stabbing someone to death with edged weapons, raping, pillaging, and blundering cities to the ground. Spreading the love.

Fact: The Romans crucified Jesus because he would have become “King of the Jews” (precisely what ‘INRI’ stands for), as he was gaining spiritual notoriety, which conversely was a detrimental threat to the Roman Imperial grip in the East. The blame was then shifted towards the Jews when the ‘Apostle’ Paul, a Roman citizen actually named Saul, began to preach to the Gentiles, AKA the Roman Soldiers. Paul persecuted many Christians in his early life, before being converted himself.”Saul, Saul, why do you persecute me?” Jesus said to him, prior to his death on his way to Damascus, where Saul was later converted.

Roman murderers repenting.
  • Then of course Constantine converted his entire Roman army a few hundred years after the death of Christ around 315AD. His mother, being a Christian, would support his reasoning’s for doing such, along with the proclaimed dream he had the night before an epic civil war battle that would decide the very Fate of the entire Western world. After his Roman Legionaries painted their shields with the image of the Chi Roh, Constantine defeated his rival Roman commander during their civil war, then ended the persecution of Christians and allowed all faiths to be allowable within the Roman Empire.
  • Once the Church had made an alliance with Empire it was a wrap. In 325AD, the First Council of Nicaea was created to unify the religion into one single religion. At the time, there were SEVERAL different versions of Christianity being practiced, but with the demented nature of the Empirical Church these were later deemed Heretical and a dangerous threat to establishment, and conversely persecuted (just like the Christians were originally persecuted: The Circle of Life! just like Lion King).
  • After the Council had been established, it was deemed that only 4 Gospels were necessary for the creation of their Holy Book, later to be known as the New Testament. But did you know that there are now over 40 known Gospels written from that period that never made it into the Bible? Uncovered recently, The Dead Sea Scrolls, The Nag Hammadi, re-translated hieroglyphs, and hundreds of ancient Sumerian tablets are among the discovered scriptures that can give us a clue to just what in the fuck we are, and why am I here on this stupid website metaphorically wringing your neck with my anecdotes in a foolish attempt to bring brain function to your walking corpse.
  • Of those 4 Gospels, they detail the life, death, and resurrection of Christ. However, in the book The Five Gospels: What did Jesus really say? a team of super rational, revered, respectable, international academia’s came together and deciphered what Jesus really said, and what sounds like bullshit added in along the way.“The Five Gospels has many authors. They have been trained in the best universities in North America and Europe. Together and singly, they first of all inventoried all the surviving ancient texts for words attributed to Jesus. They then examined those words in the several ancient languages in which they have been preserved. They produced a translation of all the gospels, known as the Scholars Version.”-Preface to The Five Gospels. Muh’fugga’s know what they’re talking about. With the Documentary Hypothesis theory in mind, one cannot really trust that a book made and controlled by an institution did not add some of their own poetic influences along the way. But hey, what do I know.

Here’s what the Jesus Seminar concluded: They found that 82% of the words attributed to Jesus’ name were not actually spoken by him. Not only that, but they detail that the Gospel of Mathew reproduces about 90% of the Gospel of Mark, and Luke about 50% of Mark. The Apostle Paul also went a little too hard on the heavenly figure of Jesus by “smothering Jesus” and “Superimposing this heavenly figure on him.”

So wait, anyone who’s been a follower of Jesus hasn’t really been a True follower? You mean, I’ve been listening blindly and mindlessly to what people want me to believe? Truly, any man be a fool who is surprised at anything in life.

Yeshua, Gnosticism, the other 40 Gospels:

Jesus’ real name was Joshua or Yeshua. The Greek to English translation brings it to Jesus, and for the sake of not confusing ya’ll, we’ll stick with Jesus. Christi=Anointed  or blessed.

82% of what Jesus said within the Gospels are not actual words spoken by Jesus, according to the Jesus Seminar (The Five Gospels: What Did Jesus Really Say). A team of North American and European universities, who have inventoried all of the surviving ancient texts ascribed to Christ, found unanimously this very fact. Regardless of your creed or religion, these theologians accumulated everything you do not have access, have not read, and have not sought out yourself to read. They put an end to this dispute. The Evangelists occasionally borrowed from common lore, “The followers of Jesus borrowed freely from common wisdom and coined their own sayings and parables, which they then attributed to Jesus.” (What Did Jesus Really Say) These theologians read aloud, read silently to themselves, and then voted among themselves that most of his sayings were fabricated to words of the priests, unknown authors, sources, or borrowed wisdom. “The Christian community soon began to search the sacred writings or scriptures-which it seems to have known in Greek rather than Hebrew-for proof that Jesus was truly the messiah.”(What Did Jesus Really Say).
After the discovery of the Nag Hammadi, we can cross reference the thousands of other scriptures to understand the authors/sources, but more importantly the time from whence it came.
A Roman edict was enforced to burn all Gnostic books, including the all fragments of the Nag Hammadi, which is why these Christian Gnostic Egyptians were persecuted and eradicated. Someone among them in hid something for us to find, at precisely the time we needed to find it. Imagine going to your local library, and everything regarding politics and religion was burned and destroyed. Would you not question as to why these things were burnt? Who could even imagine what knowledge lies in the hidden chambers of the Vatican and their abundance of knowledge of the past.
The several hypothesis of the Source include: The Q theory, a theory named the “Quelle”, or source document, explains how there are several comparable verses between Mark, Luke, and Mathew. With the finding of the Nag Hammadi, we have the Gospel of Thomas, or Thomas Judas (Jesus’ brother who betrayed him). These were not included in the four gospels because they were only sayings of Christ, it did not detail his life from beginning to end, therefore somehow was not included within the New Testament. Yet Thomas has 47 parables to Mark, 40 to Q (or the source document), 17 to Mathew, 4 to Luke and 5 to John.

  • Jesus was a bad ass. He despised establishment, cherished community of humanity, and occasionally acted a little ratchet against evil. “And Jesus entered the temple and drove out all those who were buying and selling in the temple, and overturned the tables of the money changers and the seats of those who were selling doves. And He said to them, “It is written, ‘MY HOUSE SHALL BE CALLED A HOUSE OF PRAYER’; but you are making it a ROBBERS’ DEN” Mathew 21:12 Jesus be like, ‘fuck all that nonspiritual shit, umma get’s mines.’ Further Gnostic Gospels will show a completely different Jesus we were lead to believe was the real Jesus.
  • Jesus very well could have been of dark complexion, and could have had some Greek in him as well. Let us not forget how small the Classical World was getting at this point. The Tribe of Dan (Dan: ‘Judge’) was located on the Mediterranean, and they were not entirely made up of Israelite decent. Greek’s, Africans, Italians, and everyone else around this area were trading via sea, it isn’t outlandish to think someone of this time mixed, especially with the occasional good ol’ fashion raping and the lack of contraceptives. Many followers of Christ like to get hung up on what he actually looked like, and to be honest, it doesn’t matter, and it never really did. Yes he may have had long hair, short hair, no hair, skinny, beard, no beard; the image of the vessel matters not.
  • Another thing that the Jesus Seminar said was “He seems not to have gotten along with his own family. Even his disciples are pictured as stubborn, dense, and self-serving-unable to fathom what he was about.”-Introduction of The Five Gospels: What did Jesus really say?
    • “First I spoke with you in parables, and you did not understand. Now I am speaking with you openly, and you do not grasp it. Nevertheless, you were for me a parable among parables and a discourse among things revealed.”-The Secret Book of James
    • “Woe to you who are in need of an advocate. Woe to you who stand in need of grace. Blessed will they be who have spoken out and acquired grace for themselves.”-The Secret Book of James
    • “Peter responded to these comments and said, “Sometimes you urge us on toward heaven’s kingdom, but at other times you turn us away, master. Sometimes you encourage us, draw us toward faith, and promise us life, but at other times you drive us away from heaven’s kingdom.”-The Secret Book of James
  • Further, there are still Jesus sayings that paint a different picture of the physical embodiment of the Father. Here are a few “extreme” sayings from Joshua, as recorded by Thomas (AKA Judah) in The Gospel of Thomas:
    The True Joshua was a Gnostic, meaning he largely despised the physical world, and solely focused on the Spiritual.
    • “Do not lie, and do not do what you hate,”
    • “If you fast, you will bring sin upon yourselves,”
    • “Perhaps people think that I have come to impose peace upon the world. They do not know that I have come to impose conflicts upon the Earth: fire, sword, war.”
    • “If the owner of a house knows that a thief is coming, he will be on guard before the thief arrives and will not let the thief break into the house of his estate and steal his possessions. As for you, then, be on guard against the world. Arm yourselves with great strength, or the robbers might find a way to get to you, for the trouble you expect will come.” The Jesus a typical person would imagine would have gone with A.) forfeit your belongings to those in need but looks like this Jesus chose D.) grab the gat, call the click. 
    • “The Pharisees and the scholars have taken the keys of knowledge and have hidden them. They have not entered, nor have they allowed those who want to enter to do so. As for you, be as shrewd as snakes and as innocent as doves.”
    • “Whoever does not hate father and mother as I do cannot be a disciple of me, and whoever does not love father and mother as i do cannot be a disciple of me. For my mother gave me falsehood, but my true mother gave me life.” [Comparably Mathew 10:37, Luke 14:26, Mark 8:43] Birth was perceived confinement to the physical, per Gnostic ideologies. Like, they realllllly did not want to be here. Let us not overlook the many Prophets of the world (including Buddha) who recognized life as inherent suffering. 
    • “Blessed are you when you are hated and persecuted, and no place will be found, where you have been persecuted.”
    • “Blessed is the womb that has not conceived and the breasts that have not given milk.”
    • “Let one who has become wealthy reign, and let one who has power renounce it.” Rather common humanistic philosophy.
    • “If you have money, do not lend it at interest. Rather, give it to someone from whom you will not get it back.”
    • “The Father’s kingdom is like a person who wanted to put someone powerful to death. While at home he drew his sword and thrust it into the wall to find out whether his hand would go in. Then he killed the powerful one.” Jesus sounds like a domestic freedom fighter, or terrorist in the eyes of the invaders.
    • “Whoever knows the father and the mother will be called the child of a whore.” Gnostic’s man…
    • “The Kingdom is like a person who had a treasure hidden in his field but did not know it. And when he died, he left it to his son. The son did not know about it. He took over the field and sold it. The buyer went plowing, discovered the treasure, and began to lend money at interest to whomever he wished.” Pretty strong metaphor for the Church…
    • From the Gospel of Mary: “Simon Peter said to them, “Mary should leave us, for females are not worthy of life.” Jesus said, “Look, I shall guide her to make her male, so that she too may become a living spirit resembling you males. For every female who makes herself male will enter heaven’s kingdom.” being Gnostic means you dwell on the spiritual…a lot. So, in using rational thought, they perceive the spiritual heavenly figures to be androgynous, meaning they were neither male nor female. However, on Earth/physical world, males are seen as images of all that is Heavenly, or intellectual. Sorry ladies. 
  • Did you know that Jesus had four brothers? Yes, according to dialogue in Mark 6:3 it is mentioned that James, Joseph, Judas, and Simon are his siblings, along with some sisters. James the Just, being his twin, carried on the name of Christ after his death. Judas, was the initiator of all that happened, per the request of Christ, his brother. And yet James could have been only a half brother of Jesus, as insinuated in The Second Revelation of James. The author makes a note regarding the relationship between James and Jesus “..the relationship is unclear. It may be thought that Jesus is James’s step brother, foster brother, or cousin.” (Wolf-Peter Funk, NHS)
    • “One of the priests told it to Theudas, the father of this just man, since he was a relative of his. He said, hurry and come with Mary your wife and your relatives…”
    • “Don’t be afraid, my son, because he said to you, “My brother.” You were bother nourished with the same milk. He is not a stranger to us; he is your stepbrother.”
    • “Your father is not my Father, but my Father has become a father to you.”

Interesting, none of this matches up with I’ve known to be true about the Christian religion and Jesus. Sick life bro. Well, now that there are clear distinctions between texts, hidden agendas, preconceived mindlessness. In the secret sayings of Christ found within the Nag Hammadi scriptures, we find a different type of son of God altogether. This Jesus knows he will perish, commands Judas to initiate the Fated act, and then reveals that his image will become an institution of control and manipulation, that will bring “fire, sword, war.” This very institution will hold onto the “image of a dead man”. The man on the cross you know nothing of, weeps for what we do not know, and yet continue not to know.

Is it no wonder that most people who consider themselves Gnostic’s, Atheists, or just flat out Cynics that despise and loathe modern religion that has grown to corrupt the minds of the many ignorant among us few who remain awake. Woe is the world, awakened we will be.

“And they also praise people who praise this falsehood, people will come after you. They will hold on to the name of a dead man, thinking that in this way they will become pure, but instead they will become more and more defiled. They will fall into a name of error and into the hand of an evil deceiver with complicated doctrines, and they will be dominated by heresy.

Some of them will blaspheme the truth and proclaim evil teachings, and they will speak evil against each other. Some of the will give themselves a name, for they stand in the power of the rulers.”

-The Revelation of Peter on Some First Follow the True Savior, but Then Turn Away to Worship a Dead Man

At a certain point, people stop reading and being imaginative. Books are boring, my eyes get tired, there’s nothing to read. Face it-it’s much easier to watch a show or a movie to be entertained. Everything you read now, comes from a screen. But that doesn’t mean everything from a screen is useless. I think the most intriguing aspect of the development of the mind, is the ability to return to thoughts with different outlooks.


I remember re-reading some books and realizing I had missed some important plot changes, imagery, or devices. In the case of the Bible, some things were overlooked by all of us. We’ve all built this image of an all powerful, all knowing, all present entity as the creator of existence (at least I have), yet the same book the majority of the world chooses to follow describes a very different creator. An envious God, who makes mistakes, walks, talks, and exists next to man. Judaism, Islam, and Christianity, and the thousands of secs between each, all trace their traditional faith to the earliest sources: Genesis and Exodus.


Jung, C. G. (1961) Memories, Dreams, Reflections
De Jong, H. M. E. (2002) Michael Maier’s Atalanta Fugiens: Sources of an Alchemical Book of Emblems
Miles, J. (2001) Christ: A Crisis In The Life Of God
The King James Bible
The Oxford Study Bible
Funk, Hoover, and the Jesus Seminar. The Five Gospels: What Did Jesus Really Say?
Meyer, Marvin. The Nag Hammadi Scriptures: The International Edition. Harper Collins. 2007.
The Secret Book of John; The Nag Hammadi Scriptures: The International Edition. Harper Collins. 2007.
The Dead Sea Scrolls
Zachariah Stitchen
The Tao Te Chin
The Book of the Dead (Papyrus of Ani)
Emerald Tablets
A Vision by William Butler Yeats
Blavatsky, Helena. Isis Unveiled (Volumes 1 & 2). (1877)

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